The year of suck is almost over. Here’s to hoping next year is better! I accepted a job offer, now waiting for the background check and all pre-employment stuff to clear. I spent yesterday getting my drug test done. It’s been a long time since I’ve had to do any of this.
Driving back home, I took backroads from Montclair through Mountain Brook and English Village. Reggie and I used to roam those roads. I thought of him and smiled, almost imagining him in the car with me, doing his big sigh and rubbing his head when he was deep in thought.
I miss him so much.
With it being so cold, I have not felt the best and this holiday has been harder than previous years. Thanksgiving sucking did not help any either. I am definitely DEFINITELY doing my own thing next year.
Being out of work this season sucked because I wasn’t able to spoil friends and family like I normally do. I kept apologizing to my folks tonight. I felt like a heel going over there empty handed. I lost so much time with my mom when we weren’t speaking, I still feel like I’m making it up to her sometimes.
I saw my brother and his wife for a short bit. I felt guilty not giving them anything either. I didn’t get to see my nephews, but I hope to get over to see all of them soon-ish. And once I start work again, I can send thank you gifts to make up for my self-imposed shortcomings.
So just another night of me being neurotic. I know logically I’m doing OK. I am grateful for the new opportunity that (I hope!) will be starting soon. I’m grateful for the new friends I made and everything I gained at IL. I’m truly looking forward to helping who I can with what I have, and learning to gain as much more as time and spoons will allow.
It’s a balmy 25 degrees here (F) and I’m about to snuggle up with the cats. I hope wherever you are, you have warmth and laughter and love. Stay safe!
When I saw 25 degrees I was jealous, then you have (F) and I laughed, sorry. Hope everything goes well with your job. Not working sucks. I know how it feels to show up empty handed at my parents and brothers, but at the same time I know they understand. I am hoping yours do too. Merry Belated Christmas and New Year.