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Something I’ve figured out that I need to do more of lately is guarding myself — particularly emotionally. Most days I do ok, but the ones where I don’t is, I think, because I leave myself open. Vulnerable. I went by Jim’s place Friday to pick up Jessie. She invited me in to wait while […]

I actually had a follow-up the day after my last post, but it’s still sitting on my phone. Hehe, whoops! I’m doing better. I’ve been slowly but surely cleaning up the mess left behind when Jim moved out. Jessie has been helping me to finalize some of the redecoration plans for various rooms in the […]

Jim moved out last weekend. I’m doing OK I guess. I’m coping. I’ve tried not to dwell on it, and have tried to keep myself distracted with cleaning up the mess left behind and begin working on the renovations I’d been planning to the house. My problem is when I’m left alone with my thoughts. […]

I really appreciate the out-pouring of love I’ve received from y’all. So many of you have emailed me expressing kind thoughts, advice, good wishes, and the like. If I could reach every single one of you, I’d hug you in a heartbeat! ♥ Many of you have asked: “How are you doing?” I’m doing OK. […]

Where do I start? I don’t know how to explain what’s been going on, but I’ve come to a decision. Jim’s made it clear he wants out of this marriage. Honestly it hasn’t been a real marriage in a while. I’ve spent the last 3 years in emotional limbo, dreading the inevitable. Nothing I can […]

I know I kept promising personal updates. I kept holding off thinking things may settle down for once and I’d have something new to report. Things between me and Jim haven’t really progressed forward all that much in the grand scheme of things. Sure, we have our really good days and on those days, he’s […]