I’ve been having a lot of wild dreams lately … mostly nightmares.
I have nightmares when I worry, and when I worry about work, family, money, etc. they almost always involve tornadoes or some other natural disaster. I had read somewhere that tornadoes signify the things I worry about in my life but have no control over. That kind of makes sense, natural disasters: you can worry about them, but not be able to do anything to prevent them, they’ll happen anyway.
I always get like this around the holidays anyways. It’s getting harder and harder to just enjoy them because of all the crap that comes with … like family gettogethers: why do we force ourselves to spend a day (or evening) with people we can’t stand? Take my grandmother’s family gathering last weekend: honestly the only reason I went was for GG. She’s headed up to the mountains for Christmas and won’t be back in time for each of us to do our gift exchanges, so she thought we could all get together and do them at once. That way she both gets and gives gifts to/from each kid, grandkid, and greatgrandkid.
Or, that was the theory anyways …
Daddy started picking at me as usual, which pisses Jim off, so Jim didn’t want to be there. I think he also felt a little left out because my aunt Donna and most of her family doesn’t speak to us unless they HAVE to. (Jim doesn’t like her either … I knew I have a smart man! ;)) Plus we didn’t get to take Jessie, so that made it a little of a downer too. She would have loved to seen and played with all the other kids there.
And to top off the proverbial cake: my aunt Donna and her kids all decided to do THEIR gift exchange, and do the gifts to THEIR kids, which of course leaves all of my family out and GG is just sitting around watching them do their thing at her party.
Excuse me? This is GG’s day, not yours. Assholes.
Oh well, at least Christmas is almost here. I’ll feel a lot better when this shit is over with.