I am a: Quirky sysadmin. Geek. Gamer. Comic fangirl. My little space, my home on the interwebs. I blog about personal stuffs, work, various coding projects, and anything else I feel like.

… but it feels like this one is hitting me harder than usual.

Reggie has been in my thoughts non-stop. There are times I think I see him, and my heart breaks all over again when I remember that he’s gone. I’ve been thinking about Heather too. In fact, I had a dream about her; I was racing across town trying to get to her and warn her that she was about to die. Each time I tried, I failed. I awoke shaken and in tears.

I like my job at Hibbett. My recruiter, Shane, had convinced me to give them a try; and I’m glad that I did. My teammate, Jon is a good dude. My boss George is also a good dude. I’ve made a few friends. (so far no enemies that I’m aware of) The benefits are far better than my previous two jobs, so there’s that. The commute to/from work and being in the office is killing me. I can negate some traffic a bit by leaving earlier, but some days it still takes me an hour to get home. And, I like my users, but they drain me. Figuratively and literally. I come home exhausted and spend my weekends recovering (sometimes not even doing that). My migraines have increased ten-fold. My anxiety is through the roof, but I’ve avoided medicating to try and push myself. (and wonder if I’m harming myself more in the process)

Oh well. At least home is comfortable, and soon it will no longer be hotter than Satan’s ballsack outside. And football starts up again.

My book club is planning more excursions since cooler weather is coming, so I’m looking forward to those. I’ve been seeing Donna and Jennifer, and their husbands pretty regularly, so at least I’m getting out more. That at least gets my mother and my therapist off my back. :)

It’s the little things, right?