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Call me ‘Proud Momma’

Wow, tomorrow’s Halloween already. How time has flown! We’ve been uber-busy over the past few months. Jim is doing ok, still looking for work. I’m doing ok at my new job. Things are finally starting to settle down and I think I’m getting the hang of things. I’ve been there nearly 6 months, though I still feel very much like a n00b some days, LOL!

We’re still working on the house here and there as time permits. We’ve started renovating both of the bathrooms and have started painting each room one at a time. Once Jim finds work, we can start the financing stuff again. The builder’s company that currently owns the home we want has been great about extending our contract as long as we need it, so that has definitely been one less thing to worry about!

We’ve all been spending our spare time playing Aion (as I’m sure everyone has gathered by now, LOL!). It’s been a great experience for Jessie so far. It amazes me how quickly she has picked up the MMO lingo and how she interacts with other people online — both in our guild and in pickup groups. Aion has also been excellent motivation when it comes to good behavior at home and diligence in her school work. She’s allowed to play Aion as long as she keeps up her studies and her grades, and so far it’s working great!

She’s doing REALLY well this year in middle school. She loves her teachers, her classes, and having more kids come in from area feeder schools has put a good mix of kids in her classes (rather than the same 20+ for the last 6 years). For the most part, she’s getting along much better with her schoolmates from what we can tell. We know there have been small “picking” events, but nothing near like the bullying she experienced in the elementary school. (although it helps that the two biggest bullies are no longer in the JeffCo school system — one is at an alternative school and the other now being homeschooled and “getting treatment for issues”)

Jessie is a completely different child now, it’s absolutely amazing.

I had been meaning to post about this for a while, but what prompted me was a story posted in The Birmingham News today about Trey Figures, a 12 year old boy in Anniston who committed suicide earlier this week. Reading Trey’s story broke my heart, not only because he is the same age as my child, but also because he was being bullied in a school that was completely unaware of the problem, and wasn’t doing enough to correct it.

I know I posted a little about Jessie’s bullying in the past on here. I can’t tell you how many phone calls Jim and I made to the school office, how many parent/teacher conferences we had, or how many meetings we had with the vice-principal and/or principal. (We even spoke with the parents of one of the kids who bullied her the most and even that proved fruitless.) The fact of the matter was: the school ALWAYS promised to do more, but what little that was done was never enough.

Honestly, Jessie never really started doing better until she was out of that school for good. Like most kids, she’s never the most excited in the mornings about actually going to school and doing classwork and accompanying homework, but she doesn’t beg me NOT to take her anymore. She doesn’t beg to stay out of school or stay home. She comes home in a good mood, instead of crying or sitting sullen in constant hostility to everyone around her. There’s less attitude and general bad behavior at home. You can tell just by being around her that she is a happier child.

Oh, and her grades have finally come back up! Did I tell y’all she made the A-B Honor Roll? She was just a few points shy of having straight A’s!!!!

This child hasn’t done this well since the very beginning of her school years!! The feedback we get from her teachers has been very encouraging and tells us that she is not only doing better at home, but in also at school and in class. She no longer acts up. She’s genuinely interested in her favorite subjects again and now applies herself more. One teacher put on her report card that she’s a “very respectful student.” Another tells us she “puts forth a lot of effort in class.”

Who wouldn’t be proud of that?

Anyone who knows me knows I’m a proud momma, and I’m sure Trey’s momma is no different. This morning I read Trey’s story and thought to myself, “That could very easily be any child — even mine.”

While I am very thankful and know I am truly blessed to see this wonderful transformation in my child, it breaks my heart to see a mother who won’t get the chance to see it in her own. As a personal favor to me, please keep Trey’s loved ones in your prayers.

The things we realize once we’re grown

How many times have I said, “If I only knew then what I know now … ”

Jessie and I had a long talk yesterday afternoon about some of the kids in her class. She’s like any kid and gets the normal bit of teasing from the class clown who likes to poke at anyone and everyone within yelling distance, and outside of the bullying incidents, they’ve been nothing big. However, apparently one of her classmates lately has been picking on her because she spends her time divided between two families: her mother’s and her father’s. She told me that she tried explaining to this kid that she can’t help that she has to live this way, and told me, “She just doesn’t understand what it’s like for me. I’m different because of this, and nobody likes you when you’re different.”

Oh boy, how I can relate!

Luckily my folks divorced when I was very young, so I don’t remember my biological father at all and never had to deal with having to shuffle back and forth between homes. Unfortunately, Jessie doesn’t have that luxury. And while I have no doubt in my mind that she loves us all very dearly, I think she wishes sometimes for a “normal” family setting — e.g., one family, one home.

Of all the things I can help her handle — math homework, studying for tests, learning her way around the kitchen — this is one of those things where I feel powerless to help. I’ve always tried to show Jessie how much I sympathize with her by sharing my own experiences, and I hope that she understands that she’s not alone. It tears me up to think that for even one moment she may feel as worthless as I once did. I can’t feel the pain for her. All I can do is advise her as best I know how, offer lots of hugs and support, encourage her to share her experiences with me and her mother and father, and hope that she’ll see that one day that she CAN get past this and move on to better things.

And maybe, just maybe, those who have done wrong to her will look back and realize the harm that causes.

I’ve spent a little time the past few days catching up on my feeds, and PostSecret had an entry that really hit home when I was reading over it just now …

I think I’ll print that out and save for Jessie to see when she gets back to our house tomorrow.

Sticks and stones …

Remember the old rhyme, “Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me”? I remember hearing that growing up from school teachers, family members, … I didn’t believe it then, and I don’t believe it now.

This morning Jim and I had a sit down with the school counselor and vice principal. There’s been a group of girls bullying Jessie at school and we wanted to take some steps to address the matter and (hopefully) nip it while it’s still early in the school year. It seems that a handful of girls who were in Jessie’s class last year have formed a clique with a problem child, “Buffy”*, who has bullied Jessie in the past. One of the girls, “Kelly”*, was her best friend last year and I thought she was a very sweet girl!

None of the girls are in Jessie’s class this year, but they share the same P.E. time and stand together in the “car line” waiting to be picked up by parents in the afternoons. From what we’ve been told, the girls have taken to calling Jessie names and making derogatory comments about her appearance the past few weeks. Jessie said that “Buffy”*, “Kelly”*, and several other girls would come up to her on the playground and in the halls and say really mean things to her.

We’ve dealt with “Buffy”* for the last couple years, saying mean things to Jessie, and Jim and I have talked to her about how to handle that. I advised her to just ignore the little shit — but that was one on one. For the most part, Jessie did OK with that, but now it seems “Buffy”*’s got a group of followers, which makes her a little harder to ignore (and the comments a little more hurtful coming from those she trusted).

And, to make matters worse, things have escalated.

Last week, “Kelly”* shoved Jessie hard enough for her to lose her balance — unprovoked. Jessie didn’t tell us about it until the weekend, and also told us that it’s not the first time this has happened this year. While I’m disappointed that Jessie didn’t tell us sooner, I can understand why. Most of these girls were her friends last year and in previous years. She didn’t want to tattle on her friends. “Buffy”* is really the only kid she’s had a problem with, and we found out (a little too late) that by the end of last year, she had taken to retaliating against Jessie if she went to a teacher to report the bullying. This kid started tattling on Jessie for things that (according to Jessie) she simply had not done.

Now, I know Jessie. I know when she’s fibbing. But I believe everything she’s told me about this kid, and I have seen some of the behavior first hand. I swear to God, if “Buffy”* knows what’s good for her, she’d be thanking her lucky stars that *I* am not her mother, because I would wash out her mouth with soap and give her an ass-beating she’d NEVER forget!

But I’m not … and from what I understand, her parents don’t believe she’s a problem and as such, don’t discipline her. So where does that leave Jessie?

A friend at work sent me this from the parenting section of About.com:

What Parents Can Do

If your child complains about being bullied at school, or if you suspect that might be happening, here are some suggestions.

• Make it clear that you accept your child’s reports of what is happening and that you take them seriously. She needs to know she has someone on her side who is willing to help her. Today, you are her hero.
• Reassure her that this situation can be resolved.
• At the same time, let her know that you do not think this is her fault. Her confidence has already taken a big hit, and she already feels like a victim.
• While it is natural to want to protect your child by solving the problem for him, it will serve your child better if you teach him how to solve the problem himself. By learning the skills to stand up for himself, he can use them in other situations.
• Ask your child how she has been dealing with the bullying, talk about what else can be done and discuss what actions you can both take to solve the problem. Reassure her you will consult her before taking any action.
• Teach your child how to respond to a bully in a bold, assertive way.
• Practice with him at home by role playing. Participation in other activities builds confidence and develops social skills, making it easier to find ways of saying, “Leave me alone.”
• Suggest that your child stick with two or more other children when at the playground, the bus stop or wherever she comes face-to-face with the bully.
• Make sure your child knows it is okay to ask for help from a teacher or other adult. Practice what he’ll say so he doesn’t sound like he’s whining or tattling.
• Determine if your child has healthy friendships with other children. If not, perhaps she can benefit by developing better social skills.
• Encourage her to invite friends over to your home and participate in school activities.
• If necessary, meet with school representatives to discuss the problem.
• Remember, bullying is not a normal part of growing up. Help your child develop the necessary tools to stick up for himself and others.

Most of that we’ve done already … so now I’m asking myself what options do we have left? Personally, I’d love to have a sit down with all of these girls and their parents. While “Buffy”* may continue to be a problem child, it is highly possible that the parents of the other girls may have no idea this has been going on.

So I guess we’ll see …

All I know is that I can definitely attest to the change in Jessie that I’ve noticed since the bullying originally started a few years ago. She’s doing better this year than last year, but I’m afraid that she’ll never be the fearless bubbly outgoing little happy girl that she used to be. She’s now more self-conscious, and has extremely low self-esteem.

I was bullied in grade school and some in high school. I understand all too well how she feels, and it kills me that I can’t just snap my fingers and make it go away for her! At one point during the meeting this morning, Jessie was called into the office with us to tell the vice principal what happened last week and to explain a little more about what’s been happening. She shared a lot more than what she had told us at home. It hurt me to see her so upset by all this mess. She cried while she was recalling the names these girls called her, the things they’ve said to her and about her, and the horrible things that “Buffy”* has said to her just this year alone.

What gets me is that these girls have no idea of the damage they are doing — and they are doing it to MY baby!

While I’m hopeful that our meeting today will prove fruitful, part of me wonders if it will really be resolved.

Your thoughts?

* Obviously, these are not their real names, nor promotional products